i finally come to this point, yes.i won't be using this anymore.no more fake 'i'm back' posts.

for those few years that i stayed here, i found a family.i found good friends that i will never ever forget. Learned new things, and shared what i knew.This is where my love for the arts started. This place witnessed my joys, my pains, and my growing as an adult.

With all that's been said, i want to thank everyone for showing me a part of the world that is full of happiness, kindness, and generosity.

I may not have been close with all of you, but you are all equally appreciated.

I may not be the same retarded, psychotic, hyper kid you knew before; but i'm still me. I just don't have the time to be that laid back anymore.

I am going to miss b_gatan.

That's life. We have to move on.

BUT. i'm not really leaving LJ completely. I made a new one. But it's not for fandom anymore. It'll be a place for me to keep track of my life. A diary of some sort.but not like the pre-teen diary with the 'today i saw my crush and he smiled at me' stuff.My blogspot won't allow me to lock my posts so i decided to create another LJ.(but i'm still using my blogspot)

If you guys are interested and still want to keep in touch with me, add me at bipolarinstinct 


Goodbye and THANK YOU!!!!!


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Last night, my childish older sister was playing with the microphone and asking everyone in the house what their resolutions are for the coming year. My dad gave us, his kids, advices instead of saying his resolutions.My mom went into her sentimental dramatic mode and talked about her wishes for the new year. Then my sister approached me and my brother. My brother was all 'i don't want to make any because they don't come true'. When it was my turn, i pushed the mic away.Not only because she was pissing me off (she was singing with the mic for everyone in the neighborhood to hear, and my goodness was that embarassing.she's not much of a singer) but also because i totally didn't have any idea on what i'd say!

Every year i do that list in my previous blog. But i notice that year after year, they don't really change.Maybe because if we put it into simpler words, they all are about me wanting to be a better person.

So for a change i'd do a list that's more specific, like this:

1. Go on a date. 2008 was a no-date year for me.Seriously.My friends were telling me to move on and try other guys, stop thinking that all of them are jerks.

2. Paint. Ever since i could remember, i've loved anything that has to do with art.But when i started college i stopped drawing. I always get envious of fine arts students in my school when i see them painting stuff.My goal is to fill up my room with canvases by the end of the year.

3. Take my vitamins. I don't take my vitamins that's why i'm always sick.

4. Minimize yelling at my brother. I'm qick-tempered so most of the time when i'm angry, i take it all out on my brother.

5. EAT BREAKFAST! I'm always waking up late for school so i forget to eat breakfast 99% of the time.

6. Plant sunflowers in my mom's garden. I love sunflowers.

7. Learn to cook adobo. All i know is to fry and boil!HAHA!

8. Go to Megamall. It was the biggest mall in the country. People are actually SHOCKED when they find out that i haven't gone there even once.

9. Party on my 20th bday. I don't celebrate my birthdays. I didn't even have a party on my debut!

10. Vlog. It's time to use that YT account.

i just got back from the doctor.for some medical reasons, i need to stay locked up inside the house for five days.HAHA.i love being a couch potato. ♥ (actually it's because i'm a vampire, i'll burn if i get hit by the sunlight)



The best thing for me to do is finish my holiday homeworks (which sucks btw) annnnndddddd DVD MARATHON!!!YIPEE! i'll try to get my dad to buy me DVD's of House and Chuck.AND try to watch Bleach or Naruto since a lot of my friends have been bugging me to watch those, this is the perfect time to do so.

i need money.lots of it.

if only one day i can walk outside in the streets and just find 15,000 pesos there, lying on the ground.i'll be the happiest kid alive.XD

but of course, that's too impossible to happen.money is hard to earn these days.i can't even get to find a part time job to earn extra income!!T^T or am i just too picky?whatever, i need money.

i really need new icons huh?XD

SUMMER IS OVER FOR ME.T__________________T
and because of that, change of header!

'Goodbye,lover' doesn't literally mean a human being.

Lover can be:
-summer heat
-staying up late at night
-idle afternoons
-out of town trips
-movie/drama marathons
-being lazy
-sleeping all day
-eating all day
-and all those stuff you do during summer

we say hello to..........

RAINY DAYYYYYYYYYYSSSSSS and killer school, once again.

remember this?

im not FAT.i just haven't grown into my body yet.YOU SKINNY BITCH! - cartman, southpark

oh yeaaaaah~ that's what's been making me so frustrated this afternoon.as if that quote is true.ugh.let's get right down to business shall we?
I AM GETTING FAT HOOOMGZ.no, that's not right.actually, my face is getting HUMONGOUS!!!!!!!! it's really weird.just last month it was in it's right shape, a little round but still oval.and now, it's just really ROUUUUUUUUUUND like a siopao/baozi/steamed bun(lol, whatever).i looked at the pictures when i just had pneumonia(where i lost a looooooooooot of weight), i looked frail though.XDDD and now im comparing it to my summer gained weight and im all "T______________________________T i'm pppppphhhaaaaaaat".

if i dont get back to shape before classes start by june, i think i need to get bigger school uniforms.ACK.better lose weight fast.

thank you to those who wished me goodluck for the interview earlier today! :) it turned out better than i expected.XD i hope i get the job!!!!

i got a haircut today.yeah i know, i broke my vow of never cutting it till my braces get taken off.but man, who can stand THIS heat with that hair of mine before?! seriously, i've never grown my hair up to my waist because im too damn impatient.

OMG OMFFFFGGG.STOP.WAIT.THAT CHUCK BASS GUY IS ON TV.WAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! oh god, i love that guy.XD

okay, back to the hair talk.to make the long story short, the hairstylist didn't follow my instructions and cut my hair like suri's.now i only need a bottle of milk, get wrapped up in a blanket, not wear shoes and get carried around by my mother all the time to be ultimately the grown up suri.

HI!<---oh man, that's awkward.XD

just when i was starting to love being 18, i'll be turning 19 by next month.19 19 19 19, i don't really like that number.not like 17, i LOOOOVED being 17.it kinda exudes this colorful feeling of youth.XD and 18 is like mmm, so womanly but still young.19 is like, i don't know, XD the last teen bday i'll ever have in my entire life. kinda sad but for the first time i'm actually thrilled to be older.i don't really know why though.

yesterday, [i think] i just became a vocalist of a friend's band.LOL.he was bugging me for days to sing to him so he can hear my singing voice.so yesterday i sang to him and there, he told me i'll be the new vocalist of his band.i was like 'are you serious?!' coz i totally was thinking that he was just joking around when he was bugging me to sing for him.and he was like 'i'll text you when we'll have our practices.if things go well then we'll go on with doing gigs'. i mean seriously, i still can't absorb it.i'm just, i don't know, surprised?kinda reminded me of Tokyo Friends where Ai Otsuka became a vocalist in just a snap.

so okay, my electric fan woke me up at 6 am by suddenly EXPLODING.errr, not really the BOMB like explotion, but the parts where everywhere!and i was lying there on my bed, half awake, not moving at all and just trying to tell myself 'i hope it doesn't get me' while seeing the rotating thing fly all over the room.

damn it, all i could say after that was 'now i can't get back to sleep.ugh' while my mom who woke up because of the noise rushed to the room to see what happened.she had this shocked-drugged look, idk, she had just woken up too and was too sleepy to react.

edit:
what a great news to wake up to!XD

Police in Kinshasa, Congo, have arrested 13 suspected "sorcerers" of using black magic to steal or shrink men's penises, after a wave of panic arose and attempted lynchings which were triggered by the witchcraft.

i dont change my layout so it's only a change in banner again.im too lazy to find a new layout.

i can't believe im admitting this but ever since i was a little bitch girl, i would constantly say to myself that 'i want to be a microphone' whenever i watch tv and there's a hot boy/man[yeaaaaaaahhhh i loved the hot men 5,7,10 years older than me even back then] who's singing or just speaking with a microphone.i mean c'mon, they were like kissing the microphone and gaaaaaaaaaah that just made me insanely jealous of the microphone.

AND NOW, there's David Cook who clutches the microphone like he's embracing his lover(V. Horiuchi of Utah Newspaper). GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH, damnit.so there, whenever i will see my new banner, i'll remember my dream of being reincarnated as a microphone.EPIC.

b_gatan b_gatan b_gatan

lately, whenever i stay away from my computer and just SIT anywhere, like the sofa or the floor...i easily fall asleep.no matter what time it is.

my friend told me that it's 'a sign of aging' >.< *kicks friend*

anyways, i finished Lucky Star.and i'm so sad.i miss konata.

now, isnt this a short post? :3

anybody here who has watched Lucky Star?

lol.this anime is so cccccccccccccccccuuuteeeeee, weird, funny, super random and just strange at the same time.plus the opening song and the dance reflects how HIGH the characters are.XD


i really like konata and akira.hahaha!!konata is so me.and akira is just ameyjing.her split personality is just pure crack.XD it has no story.really.but i love the randomness.you know me, the random lover.i really loved the episode where konata sang the DBZ opening song in the karaoke.CHALA!HEAD CHALA!~ XDDDD it might not be one of the best animes i've ever watched but it does make me laugh like a moron,very amusing.

oh, and i just found out, they made a live action porn version of Lucky Star..wtf. my innocent crack is corrupted. TT_______TT