GET HIGH!!!!111!1!!!1

there's no place like LJ

Wed, 25 Feb 2009 09:43:56 GMT

i finally come to this point, yes.i won't be using this anymore.no more fake 'i'm back' posts.

for those few years that i stayed here, i found a family.i found good friends that i will never ever forget. Learned new things, and shared what i knew.This is where my love for the arts started. This place witnessed my joys, my pains, and my growing as an adult.

With all that's been said, i want to thank everyone for showing me a part of the world that is full of happiness, kindness, and generosity.

I may not have been close with all of you, but you are all equally appreciated.

I may not be the same retarded, psychotic, hyper kid you knew before; but i'm still me. I just don't have the time to be that laid back anymore.

I am going to miss b_gatan.

That's life. We have to move on.

BUT. i'm not really leaving LJ completely. I made a new one. But it's not for fandom anymore. It'll be a place for me to keep track of my life. A diary of some sort.but not like the pre-teen diary with the 'today i saw my crush and he smiled at me' stuff.My blogspot won't allow me to lock my posts so i decided to create another LJ.(but i'm still using my blogspot)

If you guys are interested and still want to keep in touch with me, add me at bipolarinstinct

Goodbye and THANK YOU!!!!!

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you see! Ii'm using my lj again!HAHA!

Sun, 28 Dec 2008 10:18:18 GMT

i just got back from the doctor.for some medical reasons, i need to stay locked up inside the house for five days.HAHA.i love being a couch potato. ♥ (actually it's because i'm a vampire, i'll burn if i get hit by the sunlight)

The best thing for me to do is finish my holiday homeworks (which sucks btw) annnnndddddd DVD MARATHON!!!YIPEE! i'll try to get my dad to buy me DVD's of House and Chuck.AND try to watch Bleach or Naruto since a lot of my friends have been bugging me to watch those, this is the perfect time to do so.

Wow, thinking about it, i think i'll need to be superman to do all these things!HAHA.

where is my fairy godmother when i need her?

Wed, 18 Jun 2008 09:25:44 GMT

i need money.lots of it.

if only one day i can walk outside in the streets and just find 15,000 pesos there, lying on the ground.i'll be the happiest kid alive.XD

but of course, that's too impossible to happen.money is hard to earn these days.i can't even get to find a part time job to earn extra income!!T^T or am i just too picky?whatever, i need money.

today is MAY 31!

Sat, 31 May 2008 02:44:58 GMT

A HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY ~~BABY~~ BROOOOO!!!!

he turns 15 today.

and more news?
we're transferring house.WOOT!! yes yes, we're moving to a bigger much more better house. i want my apple green room!!

Goodbye, lover

Fri, 30 May 2008 01:53:31 GMT

i really need new icons huh?XD

SUMMER IS OVER FOR ME.T__________________T
and because of that, change of header!

'Goodbye,lover' doesn't literally mean a human being.

Lover can be:
-summer heat
-staying up late at night
-idle afternoons
-out of town trips
-movie/drama marathons
-being lazy
-sleeping all day
-eating all day
-and all those stuff you do during summer

we say hello to..........

RAINY DAYYYYYYYYYYSSSSSS and killer school, once again.

a wrinkle in time

Wed, 28 May 2008 12:51:30 GMT

as promised, here's a report(in pictures) of what happened with my trip last week in Ifugao and Mulanay.i won't be going into the details since im STILL too tired to think right now.HAHA.i just want to let you guys see what amazing things i saw. :)

the breathtaking sunrise in Ifugao.yes, we were THAT high that the clouds were just below us.

Direk Ogi and Kuya Bok taking shots of the scene.btw,that's not THE Banaue Rice Terraces, but there were a lot of those kinds in Ifugao.it's as good as seeing the actual one.

the road was blocked because of a landslide so we had to walk by foot and left the van

Kuya Bok and Kuya Alfred were carrying those big bags the whole day!wait till you see how much WALKING we did.XD

interviewing a local Ifugao.i got to help holding one of those reflector things.XD at first i was excited but then because the sun was directly facing me, i didn't enjoy it that much coz we had to hold it for a loooooong time.XD Kuya Bok was always asking me if i was ok, more like trying to 'wake me up' coz he thought i was sleeping on the job.XD

more locals

they were doing this as a group while having a group interview.i think they sell these for chicken feeds.

the locals toured us in the farms so we had to walk up, down,up,down,up,down in the mountains.

i couldn't take much pictures of those long walks since i was veeeeeeerry exhausted and the heat was killing me!my chucks were muddy but compared to the crew's feet, their's were MUUUUDDDDDDDYY like hell.XDDDDD and may i just add, my chucks are white! they were still white when we finally got to the location.

we travelled then down to Mulanay, Quezon for the whole night and arrived there by lunch time.

at the day care center.that's Direk Ogi who amidst all that lack of sleep and exhaustion, is still smiling.behind him is the student's table which he joked about to be a 'catwalk'

indoor interview where i first got to watch an indoor interview complete with all the lights and stuff.that's my professor(ms pam), kuya alfred and direk ogi.

the Mayor.we also interviewed him and again i was there to watch.I remember during the interview, we weren't allowed to make any noise because it might get in the recording. so i was very careful with my actions and whispered whenever someone talked to me, Kuya Bok specifically.he was asking me about my pink nails and borrowing my camera but failed to take a decent picture.the best part was when his mobile phone made noise.XDDDD ah no! the best part was when the mayor's mobile phone kept on vibrating in the wooden table during the interview.XDDD Direk Ogi immediately looked at Kuya Bok, suspecting it to be him.XDD it was the mayor's after all.XDD

the next day we took more shots of the community.there was a town wedding so in the local church , there were lots of these 'bridal cars' or what we locally call the jeepney.it's my first time to see a jeepney used as a bridal car btw.XD

Mulanay has a beautiful beach were locals go to.but not like 'boracay like' were the beach is filled with people.their's is really untouched and unpolluted.when we went there, there were i think only 4 kids in the beach.and yes, i was soooooooo envious.XDDDDD

breakwater.you see how clean their beach is? this was another LOOOOOOOOOONG walk.

Direk Ogi taking a shot of the serene scenery.i could stay in that place forever.

did you notice that i didn't have any pictures? HAHA.i could only take pictures of my feet and my shadows.XDDDDDDDD at least this will be proof that i was there.

if only i could show you guys everything and tell you EVERYTHING.HAHA.my god, that would take forever.XDDDD anyways, if you guys have time/money(XD), do visit these wonderful places.i promise you, you'll have the time of your life.i'd love to go back there for vacation and not for work too.XD

INGOT!XD

Sat, 24 May 2008 14:17:13 GMT

i'm tired.i lack sleep.backpain.got darker.got thinner(yey?).

but i don't care.

the last 3 days were one of the best i've had! ^___^

will post about the whole trip later.i need sleep.

every girl rants about this one

Tue, 20 May 2008 07:45:12 GMT

remember this?

im not FAT.i just haven't grown into my body yet.YOU SKINNY BITCH! - cartman, southpark

oh yeaaaaah~ that's what's been making me so frustrated this afternoon.as if that quote is true.ugh.let's get right down to business shall we?
I AM GETTING FAT HOOOMGZ.no, that's not right.actually, my face is getting HUMONGOUS!!!!!!!! it's really weird.just last month it was in it's right shape, a little round but still oval.and now, it's just really ROUUUUUUUUUUND like a siopao/baozi/steamed bun(lol, whatever).i looked at the pictures when i just had pneumonia(where i lost a looooooooooot of weight), i looked frail though.XDDD and now im comparing it to my summer gained weight and im all "T______________________________T i'm pppppphhhaaaaaaat".

if i dont get back to shape before classes start by june, i think i need to get bigger school uniforms.ACK.better lose weight fast.

my summer vacation isn't finished yet

Tue, 20 May 2008 03:46:06 GMT

starting tomorrow until the end of the week, i'll be going to ifugao.shoot, then go down to quezon, and shoot again.
ISN'T THIS EXCITING?! well, i'm excited!XDD it'll be my first time to go to these places,plus my very first job.wahahahaha!!both locations are 8-10 hours away from where i am, so we'll probably do most of our rest/sleeping time while on the road.my boss/professor also appointed me the job of documenting everything in pictures which of course is also an addiction of mine.so it's not a 'work' for me.basically, my job is to follow her around, observe,take notes on what needs to be done as she tells them,then post-shoot i'll be doing half of her work in time coding and other technicalities.you know, the stuff.lol.

i'm really looking forward to this experience.i'm hoping i can learn a lot from this.

and you guys know what this means,
i'll be gone for a while!bye!!! :)

for those who remember

Fri, 16 May 2008 06:21:21 GMT

I GOT THE JOB!

we'll be starting the shoot on the 21st to some far far far far away place.whoa.my first ever job!XD

i need new icons

Tue, 06 May 2008 14:04:52 GMT

thank you to those who wished me goodluck for the interview earlier today! :) it turned out better than i expected.XD i hope i get the job!!!!

i got a haircut today.yeah i know, i broke my vow of never cutting it till my braces get taken off.but man, who can stand THIS heat with that hair of mine before?! seriously, i've never grown my hair up to my waist because im too damn impatient.

OMG OMFFFFGGG.STOP.WAIT.THAT CHUCK BASS GUY IS ON TV.WAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! oh god, i love that guy.XD

okay, back to the hair talk.to make the long story short, the hairstylist didn't follow my instructions and cut my hair like suri's.now i only need a bottle of milk, get wrapped up in a blanket, not wear shoes and get carried around by my mother all the time to be ultimately the grown up suri.

let's try this

Thu, 01 May 2008 15:06:41 GMT

sugar and spice 4 by ~mikimikidesu on deviant ART

ladies and gents, i have a new deviantart account for my shoots.just had one earlier today.next week i'm scheduled to do three shoots.YAY!i feel so happy doing this.XDDD anyways, i'm still experimenting so i may not be the best photographer.XD but for now, i hope you'll like the first that i've done. :)

of aging and singing

Sat, 26 Apr 2008 05:35:49 GMT

HI!<---oh man, that's awkward.XD

just when i was starting to love being 18, i'll be turning 19 by next month.19 19 19 19, i don't really like that number.not like 17, i LOOOOVED being 17.it kinda exudes this colorful feeling of youth.XD and 18 is like mmm, so womanly but still young.19 is like, i don't know, XD the last teen bday i'll ever have in my entire life. kinda sad but for the first time i'm actually thrilled to be older.i don't really know why though.

yesterday, [i think] i just became a vocalist of a friend's band.LOL.he was bugging me for days to sing to him so he can hear my singing voice.so yesterday i sang to him and there, he told me i'll be the new vocalist of his band.i was like 'are you serious?!' coz i totally was thinking that he was just joking around when he was bugging me to sing for him.and he was like 'i'll text you when we'll have our practices.if things go well then we'll go on with doing gigs'. i mean seriously, i still can't absorb it.i'm just, i don't know, surprised?kinda reminded me of Tokyo Friends where Ai Otsuka became a vocalist in just a snap.

after 10 years, i get to experience a REAL morning again

Wed, 23 Apr 2008 22:42:33 GMT

so okay, my electric fan woke me up at 6 am by suddenly EXPLODING.errr, not really the BOMB like explotion, but the parts where everywhere!and i was lying there on my bed, half awake, not moving at all and just trying to tell myself 'i hope it doesn't get me' while seeing the rotating thing fly all over the room.

damn it, all i could say after that was 'now i can't get back to sleep.ugh' while my mom who woke up because of the noise rushed to the room to see what happened.she had this shocked-drugged look, idk, she had just woken up too and was too sleepy to react.

edit:
what a great news to wake up to!XD

Police in Kinshasa, Congo, have arrested 13 suspected "sorcerers" of using black magic to steal or shrink men's penises, after a wave of panic arose and attempted lynchings which were triggered by the witchcraft.

my secret dream

Tue, 22 Apr 2008 11:01:33 GMT

i dont change my layout so it's only a change in banner again.im too lazy to find a new layout.

i can't believe im admitting this but ever since i was a little ~~bitch~~ girl, i would constantly say to myself that 'i want to be a microphone' whenever i watch tv and there's a hot boy/man[yeaaaaaaahhhh i loved the hot men 5,7,10 years older than me even back then] who's singing or just speaking with a microphone.i mean c'mon, they were like kissing the microphone and gaaaaaaaaaah that just made me insanely jealous of the microphone.

AND NOW, there's David Cook who clutches the microphone like he's embracing his lover(V. Horiuchi of Utah Newspaper). GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH, damnit.so there, whenever i will see my new banner, i'll remember my dream of being reincarnated as a microphone.EPIC.

b_gatan b_gatan b_gatan

this is why you shouldnt believe everything you see on the interwebz

Fri, 18 Apr 2008 18:17:43 GMT

Magibon, the youtube sensation 'japanese' girl who posts tons of her 10 second videos doing ABSOLUTELY NOTHING.

WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!! i love revelations like these.that explains why she doesnt do anything but stare at the camera and do a V sign in the end trying to look cute and all 'japanese'-y.LOL.

the magibon revelation with subs

well if you ask me, DODOLOOK is the cutest youtuber.and she's not a fake.

X3

Thu, 10 Apr 2008 13:47:04 GMT

lately, whenever i stay away from my computer and just SIT anywhere, like the sofa or the floor...i easily fall asleep.no matter what time it is.

my friend told me that it's 'a sign of aging' >.< *kicks friend*

anyways, i finished Lucky Star.and i'm so sad.i miss konata.

now, isnt this a short post? :3

CHALA!HEAD CHALA!

Tue, 08 Apr 2008 17:40:21 GMT

anybody here who has watched Lucky Star?

lol.this anime is so cccccccccccccccccuuuteeeeee, weird, funny, super random and just strange at the same time.plus the opening song and the dance reflects how HIGH the characters are.XD

akira flipping off the audience.HAHAHAHA.this anime is so cool.

i really like konata and akira.hahaha!!konata is so me.and akira is just ameyjing.her split personality is just pure crack.XD it has no story.really.but i love the randomness.you know me, the random lover.i really loved the episode where konata sang the DBZ opening song in the karaoke.CHALA!HEAD CHALA!~ XDDDD it might not be one of the best animes i've ever watched but it does make me laugh like a moron,very amusing.

oh, and i just found out, they made a live action porn version of Lucky Star..wtf. my innocent crack is corrupted. TT_______TT

what's that word again?

Sun, 06 Apr 2008 09:19:54 GMT

PATHETIC.

has it ever happened to you guys? have you encountered let's say an icon, or whatever graphic by other people here in lj or anywhere else that you're really really just surprised of how EXACTLY it looks like something that you've made before. might be coincidence...i don't know...could it be just coincidentally that they decided to use the same coloring, the same word/s and font, even the same fucking punctuation mark/s?

ugh.

i'm not saying that i'm a very original graphic maker myself. i do get ideas from other peoples works but not to the point that i just use a slightly different picture and do the same exact effects or designs.that is just lame.specially if it's really OBVIOUS.

i remember when this first happened, back when i was really active still in lj and graphic making.i was so furious.but i didn't say anything to that person.but now, it happened again.my goodness, what can i say? pathetic.

/bitching

my laptop is so full of junk.better clean it up and free some space.i need to get me those smexy hot japanese pron scans asap.

SUMMER LOVIN'

Fri, 28 Mar 2008 03:03:54 GMT

AHA!AHA!!*jumping for joy*

IM FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!! IT'S OVERRRRR!!THE SCHOOL YEAR IS OVER!!MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! ack, i can't believe i'm still alive after a year of suicide doing endless video productions, scripts, stage productions,KILLER scrapbooks, thesis,research papers and all that jazz.LOL.i'm just so happy that i can have 2 months of rest before the REAL work begins in 3rd year.they say that 3rd yr will be the deadliest of all.UGH.IM SO NOT EXCITED AT ALL.we'll also be having our OJT come 2nd semester of 3rd year.but you know what? i still don't have a concrete decision on what major i'll be taking. but from the looks of it, i think i'll end up getting broadcast communication since my classmates, professors, and senpais highly suggest that i should go into that.ok, whatever, let's just wait for the end of the 1st sem where the mass comm faculty wiill be conducting interviews and screening for which major we'll be going into.

but for now, CARPE DIEM.

i have lots of things i want to do this summer:
1.relive my graphic making hobby
2.catch up on my fandoms
3.relive my love for drawing
4.watch movies and dramas i've been dying to see
5.BLOG.LOL
6.go to the beach (wow, i'm not afraid of the sun anymore)
7.plan my birthday celebration
8.sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep
9.read books

this is exactly how i feel right now.LOL.♥

para akong tae / i feel like shit

Sun, 30 Dec 2007 08:25:49 GMT

kahapon, paggising na paggising ko pa lang, eh masama na pakiramdam ko.feeling ko e parang nakipagsexy time ako sa elepante matapos uminom ng isang pitchel ng beer.[ows?kung magsalita e parang naexperience na nya e no?] wala naman talaga akong balak na gawin para sa araw na yun.ang naiisip ko lang na gawin eh tumambay sa bahay, as usual, magcomputer magdamag at palipasin ang oras at matulog uli.pero, ginising ako nang maaga ng aking ina at ng aking lowla at pinilit akong sumama sa kasal ng isang distant relative. >.< I DONT WANT! yun ang gusto kong sabihin.masama ang pakiramdam ko, tinatamad ako, at di ko feel pumunta ng kasal lalo na on a short notice....pero, di ako nakatanggi dahil ang lowla ko ay minsan lang humingi ng favor sa akin.kaya naman kahit babangag bangag ang pakiramdam ko eh bumangon ako, naligo, pumili ng mapormang pormal na damit, nagayos at viola! reydi to go na.

sabi ng aking ina, ay sa intramuros daw ang kasal.binabanggit nya ang manila cathedral kaya naman ekzayted na ekzayted ako dahil isa nanaman itong magandang oporchunetey para kumuha ng magagandang litratow.naiimagine ko na ang magiging kalalabasan...red carpet na napapalamutian ng petals ng mga rosas, heben na heben na tugtog mula sa church organ o sa choir, at ang nakakaromantic na pagproklama ng mag-irog ng kanilang pagmamahal sa isa't isa.

ngunit, laking gulat ko nang hindi pala sa manila cathedral darausin ang kasal. watda!? sa MAX'S RESTAWRANT daw na nasa TAPAT ng manila cathedral. oh my.nalungkot na lamang ako dahil di na ko makakakuha ng magagandang litrato ng kasal sa simbahan.T_T pagdating namin sa max's restawrant, nagulantang nanaman akong muli dahil hindi pormal ang suot ng mga tao.samantalang ako ay mapormang maporma na feeling gagawa ng myusic video para sa isang rock band sa japan, with matching lacey top and white stilleto pumps pa ang drama! mabuti na lang at hindi ko sinuot ang DRESS na una kong nilabas mula sa aking aparador, kundi baka sinabunutan na lang ako ng bride na hindi ko kilala.

nakilala ko ang aking mga 2nd cousin, pero di din kami nakapagbonding dahil wala ako sa mood.tandaan niyo, may sumpong ako dahil masama pakiramdam ko.ngunit nang matapos na ang kainan at ang kacherbahan ay medyo nakangiti na din ako at pumayag makipagkodakan sa mga tao, in demand ako bakit ba?! XD

paguwi namin sa bahay, BOOM! bagsak. 39.2 ang aking temperatura.galit na galit ang aking ina dahil di ako inaalagaan ng aking blister[si ate dhixy] habang wala siya.kaya naman ngayon, pakiramdam ko ay tae ako.teka, wala namang pakiramdam ang mga tae diba?

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it's time to start a new beginning

Thu, 27 Dec 2007 16:36:35 GMT

only a few more days before 2008.oh god, i feel like we're going to step into a new world.LOL.yeah im weird like that.since i've already made the recap post for 2007, now i'll do the new year's resolution for 2008!

1.NO MATTER HOW I GET TIRED OF MY HAIR, I WILL NEVER CUT IT SHORT. for 2007, i had my hair cut like yassu's..remember?damn, that was short.now it's really hard and irritating because i want long hair, my hair doesn't grow fast you see.that's why i keep on wanting to have a wig.XDD

2.I WILL NOT PUT MY GUARD DOWN. at any situation, i will never let myself give up or lose.but if i do, i will not cry like a baby and accept my failure because life's just like that.we do not always come out victorious.

3.I WILL LOVE MY BODY. no harsh diets anymore.i will eat properly and treat my body fairly.

4.I WILL NOT EXPECT.just go with the flow of life.

5.I WILL NOT BE ANTI-SOCIAL ANYMORE.talking to people won't kill me.

6.LEARN TO SAY 'NO'.saying 'no' doesn't mean that your not a nice person.

7.DON'T SPEND ALL YOUR MONEY ON ONE BLOW.learn to save.

8.I WILL GO OUT MORE.there's a lot of things the world has to offer, don't lock yourself in the four corners of your room all day.there are lots of things to discover, lots of people to meet, and lot of things to learn.

9.I WILL TRY TO FIND TIME FOR EVERYONE/THING IN LIFE.don't take people/things for granted.

10.I WILL ALWAYS LOOK AT THE BRIGHTER SIDE OF LIFE.life's too short to waste it in days filled with sadness.

goodluck on your new year's resolution too guys!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!*^__________^*

ack.my head hurts

Tue, 25 Dec 2007 14:39:25 GMT

'Trust is like a vase.. once it's broken, though you can fix it the vase will never be same again.'

Just when you thought that your friends are the ones who you can trust with all your heart, some of them still fail and end up breaking that trust.I value friendship as much as I value my family and God. Once I embrace you to become a part of my life, to grow with me and be with me through the happy and sad times; breaking the trust that I've given you will be VERY hard to get back.Once that stain is there, it remains there forever.

I was deeply hurt, so much that I cried my heart out and had to tell those things to my sister, whom i rarely talk to about my personal problems, and other friends that i trust will take my side and understand what I'm feeling.I said mean things, because I was really angry.I couldn't help it. All i ask is for you to ask for my forgiveness, sincerely apologize for what you have done and accept the fact that you did something wrong. You made me look like an idiot.I thought you, out of all the people, were the last person to hurt me.Simple as it may look to you, for me it's not.Stop thinking that all what you think is right is what is really right, because it's not.

RESPECT me, my feelings, and our 'friendship'.

.

Mon, 24 Dec 2007 02:35:54 GMT

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EVERYONE!!!!
may you all have a blessed christmas.gem loves you!<3

y am i still here?i should be making those papers!XD

Tue, 18 Dec 2007 13:31:38 GMT

tomorrow's the last day of classes for this year!!!!yay! somehow, i'm really happy because i can finally get some rest and not worry about doing school work but it makes me sad to think that this year will be ending in just a few more days, and that tomorrow will be my last day with my blockmates in a classroom for this year.WHY AM I BEING SO SENTIMENTAL?!HAHAHA.okay, since i'm in the mood right now, why don't we take a look back at what happened this year?

1.i found wonderful friends and we called ourselves 'C-UTE'
2.i lost weight back in summer vacation because i forget to eat when i'm infront of the pc
3.i took the exam in the japan embassy.hoped and prayed so much to pass it after weeks of hard studying...but i failed.
4.i turned 18!!!yay!
5.i became interested in photography and brought my camera everytime i went out
6.i promised myself and tried hard to convince myself not to cut my hair until i reach the length that i want
7.i became a director
8.i got my wish!! DL!
9.kenzou came!!!!
10.went to iloilo and came back home alone
11.my social life improved like whoa!
12.got a new phone..SHO-CHAN!
13.my fashion style mellowed
14.had a fight with prinsesita_dada..AHAHA!i love u dar!♥
15.mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm....owrayt.
16.there's something in me that changed..mm, i think somehow i have matured.LOL
17.got drunk for the first time

to sum it all up.2007 was GREAT!if i would pick if what year i can say that i have transformed..this is the year. i don't know if people can notice it, but i do. i know that there's something about the way i think, i talk, i speak, i act, etc that are evidences of something..i don't know..really different.i was a very different person in the beginning of this year, it's funny how so much can happen in just a year.

I LEARNED A LOT.

thank You for the wonderful year.^^

i hope you guys had a great year too!